SUPER JUNIOR boys rock my bra!
KIM HEECHUL my sayang..ARGH!!!!
*look down at his pic* can i faint? huhu
*MELTS* Kim heechul <33
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BUBBLY peeps
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Hello peeps. morning, now clock strike 03.01am and here i'm blogging and down with tears. come on, again? yea.
i don't know why god let me be in this life. someone can exchange lives with me? i wanna be happy can? for god sake, nobody knows how i felt at this time crushing my heart and still say there will be hope again. i now fuck th HOPES! but what i believe now is KARMA bitch. i felt so lonely, i felt no used to be in this life anymore. i wish i can go blind and i dont see any mistake people did cause it just hurt me more deeper. i wish i could change myslf, but whenever i intend to change something will just stop me for doing tht and it could be anything. can god give me a magic power to change th whole world and treat ppl all fair and square? can no humans gets sad and angry? can relationship commit till th end? can 1 guy be for th 1 girl? can have no vulgarities? can have no tears? sometimes, i think i was too much. but ppl kept letting me down when i just wanna be right?
we used to live like meeting almost everyday and never ever failed to make me smiled, i rmmber i was afraid to give my first kiss to him cause i scared i will be in pain in future if he leaves, always under my block at th playground laying on my lap, always ask me to give u tight hugs, always hold my hand when we walk together, throw coin in th reservoir and wish what i want to throw in life and what i want in life, walk me home, crave cement me and yr name, watch movies, when u say u love me, when u say u want to marry me, u draw liner on my face and i drew yrs, when i stayed yr house, see u snored, when u used to called me everynight then sleep and never failed to say 'love u 'at th end, when u used to give me proper massage when i'm all aching, where u fed me like a bby, where u used to stay my house for weeks to get yrslf recover, to be with u.
bby, wheres everything gone? will it last? do u want this? bby, where are u when i need u? bby, why do u change? bby, what do u want from me tht can make u be happy with me back? bby, u wont change. bby, i have to listen to u everything. bby, u still unhappy. bby pls tell me. bby, dont let me wonder and walk alone in life. bby, i need u and i still love u. bby, can u understand me? bby, what if i die? bby....i dont have a life like yours. bby, can u honestly say u love me. dont let me wonder.
p/s: bby, tell me how do u feel when u saw me flirting with other guys? bby tell me what do u do to me? what if i leave u and go to tht guy? bby, pls tell me. bby, tell me what if i've xchanged my numbers with him? bby, tell me what do u feel if i was on my phone for 24/7? bby tell me something nice. bby, tell me if u love me with yr whole heart. bby, tell me u could do anything for me to make me smile and laughed again. bby, am i boring to u? bby, am i disgusting? bby, when can i have u hug me like u used to? bby, when can we sit at th playground and u lying on my lap in th midnight when everybody is slping? bby, when can u kiss my forehead agn? bby, when will u cook for me agn? bby, when can u draw my face with yr liner agn? bby, what if i never found u? bby, wheres my happiness tht u kept for so long? bby, can u come now comfort me? bby, why do i need u? bby, do u know i'm crying now? bby, why things arent over yet? bby, wheres my tight hug tht u used to ask and give? bby, can we commit with each other? bby, do u know i'm scared? bby, do u feel me when im sleep? bby, do think of me everyday and time? bby, i'm sad. bby, am i useless? bby, why cant i hate u? bby, why must u be in my heart? bby, why must we bump with each other in mrt before knowing u? bby, can u answer me? bby, im confused. bby, do u need me in yr life? bby, can u live without me? bby, i cant live without u. bby, why must b me? bby, what will happen in 20yrs coming? bby, i love u, do u?
