SUPER JUNIOR boys rock my bra!
KIM HEECHUL my sayang..ARGH!!!!
*look down at his pic* can i faint? huhu
*MELTS* Kim heechul <33
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BUBBLY peeps
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Hello my beautiful people reading my blog. haha.
ok, i know no one will be reading my blog. but i kept posting new post. well, my brain function everyday and every second, i have lots of words or story to tell every time. though my life is total suckness, i wish someday god will give me th happiness to lead my life. what so suck in my life? haha! nothing much its all th same thing tht went through most on th teenagers wanting to grow up.
Seriously, i hate th way my family treats me in time. i hate it when people order me to do stuff tht i dont want. like forcing? but mostly, i SUPER DUPER hate my fucking YOUNGER BROTHER! i'm easy going girl, i go and follow th flow in times. what do you want i will do even if i dont want to. just to create a happy moment and made them smile. do they think of me? no! cause i listen too much they treat me as if, ahhh this girl ok go punyer so force her do. i fucking head it when people just go overboard me. nah-uh, dont try my luck. cause i know i never hates people tht deeply and always forgive them after cursing them.. haha. short tempered. but i dont do revenge ok?
and another thing is relationship, i want to have a wonderful long-lasting relationship. tht can commit till end. my bf and me and me and my bf. so i dont mind without having a friend. cause friends are there for stabbing. it's irritating i know to meet yr love ones like 24/7. but i like it tht way. day off sure... i give space but dont ever lose any trust tht i gave to u. once i lose it truthfully it's hard for me to gain tht trust back, though giving a CHANCE or NUMEROUS CHANCE won't fully regain me back like i used to. theres always be conflict for sure. when u had no feelings for me already, tell me so i knows it. yeap hurts, but i will try to make 1 step back from u. u love me, i love u ten times then it could be. i give u everything tht are meant to be. hehe. but i have stubborn too so depends.. Lol!
friends or foe, im not sure what is she trying to do to me. saying all bad stuff in my relationship makes me hurt deeper. i know kai never treats me fair as in i treat him. i know he has alot of girl friends around him. i know him, even he lies. i felt it. but i let it go. i know people could change. i'm giving everybody chance till when i see they can't change then i'll make my own decision. im not an angel too. i know how burden i am to him. i wish to stop AND make him happy to fly but i cant. my lips say let go but my hearts say don't. i just love him and i wish he realised it what im trying to do in this relationship. and for you, stop calling me say kai this and tht. just let it be. till th person realise. :)
god, could u give me a magic power?? every night before going to bed i'll pray for what i wants to achieve, could it ever come true? i know i'm like not appreciating what god gave me th path tht i live. i just couldn't take th pain, but remember i pray i will try my best to take it and change it. when i look up into the dark sky before going to slp, i smiled but beneath it i cry tht hoping my life would change to be better.i just feel i'm cheating th people around me putting on fake smile whenever they're there. i'm sorry guys. i just dont want to trouble up their mind of taking care of me.
WOAH.. my stomach growling.. lets eat! i cook in th morning already because of my mom throw pillow on my face. i can never have my sweetdreams. my house is like haunted house. so many bunyi..
