idk where to begin or start my line here. i was fucking confused with my own feeling and having really hard times. work was fine. 1 of my friend just get transfer out frm that departmnt. i was very angry with my management due to some changes in last min. and all i put it aside. Just being me. family and i was A A A ok kot. but i just missed out my family gathering by my mom side for once. i was totally upset for overworking myself and not having time with them. and now what i'm goin to type out all my feelings. 1 word, PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME! u people know? that i have never be in love til i given up almost everything in me to the person.? yes i do love him. and yes i do hate him too. but here it is, th more i'm trying to hate him th more i felt like loving him. sound crazy but yes. i hate him is not like, oh i reallyreally hate him. but the fact is i hate th way to get treated so harsh. how can i just hate him like ok i fought with u and then hate u for th whole years i'm living??? ridiculous.. if i were to do that i just waste my 3yrs in love with someone that worthless to me.. just think. and totally hurt with u.
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