i'm exausted after trying to change so hard to make someone happy but yet i get is unappreciate by them. this week was lovely i tot as grandma and grandpa will b coming from malaysia to singapore for my cousin engagement day plus i had a good day so far till today i felt so hurt deep inside me. with people around me and fucking attitude towards people. i think life is fate to put a fake smile and i think i must start learning to learn how to let go thngs that i've been dream on this years. it's quite harsh for me to handle things alone.i can't take it eventhough i've tried. idk what can make me smile blissfully. or am choose th wrong path just bcause of love? by mking someone happy i, myself not making me happy. i hurt myself. i don't get what i want. what so lucky in me anw? i'm nothing compare to someone...i'm always th loser. i'm always th bad one. i'm always th ugly one. i'm always th nobody. i'm always a dreamer with nothing. i'm always th crybaby. i'm always th one who get scolded infront of people. i'm always th foolish one. what went wrong idk. i wish and hope life can treat me well. and mostly happy with a bigggg smile. not fake smile. am i stupid? i don't regret bcause i know i can learn frm mistake. i don't live to hate but i wish live to love. people just don't understand and always taking advantage of my kindness i think. i'm pissed with u. Congrats for made me this. u've won in all fights. i'm th loser. bye
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